Profound

"Criticism can consume our lives to the point of emotional paralysis, or we can set our hearts to serve God faithfully undeterred by that criticism and put our God on display. When we do that, we won’t need to answer our critics with words—our lives will say all that is needed. " — Bill Crowder


Wow....I think I needed to hear this today. Not that I'm facing any criticism in my life right at this moment, but this put it all in perspective for me today. My prayer is that I commit everything that I do to God......every word, every thought, and every action. So that He gets all the honor and all the glory.

Find Myself

Ok...so...I find myself today in such a better mood than as of late. Not that I've been in a bad mood, just been kind of feeling like I've been floating through life kinda humdrum. Make sense?? Anyway, I read in my devotions today and I'm amazed at the unconditional love of God. Time after time, after time, the Israelites continue to do wrong and God continued to lift them up, dust them off and allow them to try again. Somedays, I feel like that.....like I need picked up, dusted off, clean up my bumps, bruises and scrapes, and then put back up on my feet to try again. So, I find myself AMAZED that God would love someone that He has to constantly pick up. Someone that continues to mess up. Wouldn't you think that He would get tired of doing this and at one point and say..."ok that's enough, I'm not picking you up anymore....you're to much of a hassle." Not a chance. He's SO MUCH BIGGER THAN THAT !! He's a God of a BAZILLION chances. All that He asks is that you love and worship only Him. IT'S COMPLETELY AMAZING !! That is what I strive to do daily.....love and worship only HIM. Whether it is through listening to music on the way to work or whether it's through all my daily duties. Sitting here at work at my desk, meeting the people on the phone and coming through the door. I try to be Jesus to everyone I meet. God never promised it would be easy. He just promises to be there to pick you up when ever you fall. NEVER TO LEAVE YOU.....ALWAYS BY MY SIDE !!. So, thank you Father for picking me up.....for giving musicians words that speak to me on my way to work or wherever while in my car.

My prayer has always and will continue to be......"May YOU increase and I decrease". May others see Jesus when they see me......and not ME.

Losing Sleep

I found myself losing sleep last night and I have no idea why. As I laid there awake, I thought...."Ok Father, what do you want to tell me?" I love times like this. Although, most times I find my mind very wonderous. Going from one situation to another and so on. Does this make sense?? Everything is fine with us here at home although, I want a deeper relationship with Christ and I'm trying very hard to make time for that. Our children are growing and doing well in school and spiritually. I know that they need to deepen their relationships with Christ as well, which I pray for daily. Doug is content with his job which is really COOL. We've waited so long for a job that he could be happy with. So, I'm still at a loss for why the loss of sleep.

I miss my friends that I used to be able to bounce my life's situations off of, and I find myself hurting for one of my best friends and her life's situation right now. I long for her to be able to heal and to be spiritually whole right now. So, that's what I used my sleeplessness for, to pray for my friends that I miss so much.


Sooooo......On a totally different subject......I find myself so frustrated with a couple of fellow employees, both of which were in a one year relationship together. Anyway, I'm frustrated because the gentleman that works here has all but decided that he in no way can work in an enviornment that his ex-girlfriend works in, and the ex-girlfriend has decided she is not leaving her job for anyone. Now with that being said.....this is his full-time job and he has a 4 year old little girl that he must support. The woman that works here is a full time TEACHER and has a dog, she only works here on SATURDAYS. Now I find myself in the middle of these two because for whatever reason they have both decided that I am their counselor!! I'm am wanting this guy to GROW UP and STAND UP for his daughter's well being, and I would love for this woman to GROW UP as well. It's to the point that it's affecting everyone here at work. The management seems to think that they cannot do without the woman, when the guy makes this place SO MUCH MONEY. So what's up with this???

Doug and I are trying to counsel the guy, because he is a "new believer".....trying to explain to a new believer that God's strength is only given one day at a time is very hard. (I don't even have this one down yet....some days I do) I have resolved myself to PRAYER alone.....NO MORE ADVICE to give. Prayer alone does so much and I need to step out of the way and let God do what He does best !! This trying to be Jesus to a dying world is hard work and draining sometimes. Wow.


SO MUCH RAMBLING......My apologies for my mind being in so many different directions.

Much love